Christmas is almost here. The house is all decorated. Amazingly we have managed to finish all our shopping a week early. Nice. The boys are getting excited. I think I am getting more excited.
I remember how exciting it was for me when I was little. Let's hop in the time machine shall we?
1983-12-25 12AM
88mph....Flux capacitor kicks in....
Shreveport, Louisiana. Poleman Road. There we are. Our little house didn't seem so little then. 3 bedrooms. 2 bathrooms. Wood floors. Green velvet couch. Curtis-Mathis console TV. Smell that Christmas tree. It's cold outside but the dogs are loving it. Malamutes. They get excited when the weather turns colder.
My sisters share a room. I have my own. Except one of my walls isn't a wall, it's kind of a room divider, wooden drapery...thing. I like my bed. Sometimes though, I get freaked out by imaginary monsters and try to sleep in my parent's bed. Or the hallway. Not tonight though. Bad dreams and monsters are on vacation.
Earlier that night we'd been at Granny and Grandpa's. Everyone was happy. We ate until we burst. Every kind of dessert imaginable. My favorite is Aunt Linda's blueberry cheesecake. Dozens of people packed into a tiny living room heated by a fireplace. Grandpa can make a fire hotter than the sun. Nobody cares though. Crack the door, instant relief. There's couches against the walls for the grown folk. Two recliners for Granny and Grandpa. The floor is ours. The best place to unwrap presents anyway. Uncle Ernie goes all out and spends way too much. Granny and Grandpa just sit and smile and laugh. They have seen enough hard times in their life to know when to just relax and enjoy the good times.
The night winds down and we give hugs and kisses and say goodbye to everybody. I am tired but not THAT tired. I know what morning brings. The drive home is short and easy. Take a left. Follow the curves. Right. Left. Right. Left. We are home. Take a bath. Pajamas. Brush our teeth. Time for bed. Kisses. "I Love You, Goodnight." A million happy thoughts in my head as I drift off. Try to stay awake to see Santa...but sleep wins out.
Morning comes. It's all I can do to keep from running at a dead sprint to the living room. Santa has been here. All of our toys are all unwrapped and out the packaging already. Santa must not like to wrap presents. Oh man, look at that...laying on the chair over there. That's my stuff! Oh WOW! A Red Ryder. A case of BB's. Everything else is just stuff. I am the luckiest boy in the world. Metal and Wood coming together to make the most beautiful machine a boy could ever own. Santa Claus, how did you know? Momma tells me to be careful with it. Daddy is just as proud as I am. Annie and Katie got..dolls or something frilly, pink, or lavender...who has time to worry over that junk? I am a boy on the cusp of manhood!
The rest of the day is spent with family. We go to Grandma's house on Dalzell. More presents. More Cousin's, Aunt's, and Uncle's. I can't stop talking or thinking about my gun. I want to take it wherever I go. Oh how I want to have it with me now. I could show Mamar. Maybe we could snap off a shot at a squirrel. Oh man. Everything goes into fast forward now. Hugs. Kisses. Car. Road. Home. BB Gun.
We take a bath and talk about our day. The best day ever. Pajamas. Brush those teeth. I put my rifle by my headboard. "Goodnight, I love you." Lights out. I pick my rifle up and slip it under the covers with me. Tonight, it stays by my side. I sleep the sleep of the contented soul. Dreams of chasing outlaws on horseback and displays of uncanny marksmanship fill my head. I am as happy as I can be.
Phwoooosh!
Back to now.
That my friends, is magic. I will never forget how I felt back then. All the wonder. Everything was new and exciting. But you know, for a long time I forgot about it. Forgot the magic. The wonder escaped me. Everything was old, dull and boring. And then, my boys came. It's as if the magic never left. Through their eyes I see everything as new again. I can slip these old tired ideas and get back to the wonderment of it all. Christmas is here. The lights, the sounds, the smells, the pure unadulterated joy. They are feeling it and showing it and sharing it with us. And so again, I am as happy as I can be.