It Doesn't Get Any Easier

Today the boys and I had to head back to school after our wonderful 2 week winter break. Jake and Brady were excited to go back to school and see their teachers and friends. I, however, whined like a little girl last night (to my very supportive husband), telling him how much I didn't want to go back. On my way to work early this morning, I remembered that it would be the first day back for a teacher friend of mine who had her first baby in October. I started to think back to each time I had to leave my boys for the first time since they had been born....and I realized, not much had changed. On my first day back to work six weeks after Jake was born, I remember being teary-eyed trying to pull myself together at work as each person asked me "how it felt to be back." Ugh. One of my co-workers empathized with me about it and then told me, "I know this is hard, but it will get easier." It is over 5 years later, and I am here to tell you...it has never gotten any easier for me. Don't get me wrong, I am very blessed to have always had loving family to care for my babies while I was at work, but each and every day I leave them in the morning, my stomach hurts and I begin missing them immediately. Boys, I cherish each and every moment I have with you and I miss you terribly each minute I have to be away. I don't understand the moms and dads who "can't wait for school to start again so the kids will be out of the house," or the stay-at-home parents who take that blessing for granted. I know how lucky I am to be your Mommy and I promise I will never take one moment with you for granted. You truly make my life complete.

p.s. Thank you to my WONDERFUL husband for the beautiful flowers today. You made a very hard day a little easier. And I can't forget to thank my sweet friend, Karly, for thinking of me today.